Well tonight is decent. The only bad thing was i spilled boiling soup on my chest. And most are like well what did it do to your shirt. and i say what shirt? now if you know me well you will know i almost never wear clothes. Tonight i was in nothing but boxers. and my mother wanted me to try the soup. As its boiling, and boiling point is 100 degrees celsius and 212 degrees fahrenheit, As i get a spoon full before it has any time to cool down at all, i see it drip. so i jump back so it wont hit my leg. But as i do, the spoon tunes and flings the 212 degree soup on my chest. And it hurts let me tell ya. I thought a lighter hurt. Ha childs play. Worst part is im bleeding a little. and my mother goes off an laughs at me for it. And you people wonder why hate her. hmmmmm

i wish i had a cat. There so cute and cuddly. But sadly my brother is allergic to them. So we cant have one. but for some reason we have a dog. And yes he is cute but hes bothersome. He is afraid of everything. Literally. Even his own food! its a bit sad. But i guess its ok. he doesn't get in the way too often. Only when my mom is home. But still i want a kitty. There adorable and i love holding them and just playing with them. and its stupid because my brother isn't even helping around the house. hes like a bum we picked up off the street. it pisses me off because i know when i turn 18 im paying for the electric bill and phone bill. So i need a job soon. Well i guess thats it. im bored gotta clean. bye bye

Ok tonight I was bored. Saw some funny runescape videos on youtube. Soooooo.......I decided to play runescape for a little bit. And guess who i saw?! Some chick who was trying to be a "Player" For a few guys. And i called her a slut and made her look bad in front of many people on runescape. So she decided to message me on aim. Here is our convo.




MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:29:58 PM): mutha fckaa if yu got something to say to me yu bettah think twice and bitch fckinn swallow . yu have no fckinn life at all yu iz low . fckinn gay ass name , HAPPYPANDA234 , thats fckinn low az hell , so yu bettah think twice , are yu shure yur even a fckinn guy ?? yu probabally dont even have a social life all yu do iz go on runescape &* thats how yu fckinn noe me from 2 years ago !!
Happypanda234 (8:31:02 PM): Lol wow learn to spell please. Once you can spell right ill argue with you let you insult me or what ever. but please refrain from N00b speak.
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:32:15 PM): uhmm fckinn bitch thats how we tlk now , incase yu havent fckinn noticed i noe how to spell , yu fckinn gay ass nerd happypanda once yur through with me yull be sadpanda .
Happypanda234 (8:32:37 PM): Ok you just proved my point
Happypanda234 (8:32:47 PM): You have no life if your talking how you need to in runescape everywhere else
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:33:16 PM): thats how yu fckinn tlk on aim .
Happypanda234 (8:33:57 PM): OK WOW! No matter what you should try and have good grammar. Even on aim. It doesn't matter where you talk. If you speak like that then that proves you talk to much ion the internet and text
Happypanda234 (8:34:05 PM): I would prefer if you didn't Butcher the English language.
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:34:52 PM): ehmm , yur such a fckinn nerd cuhz it doesnt matter how i tlk rite ? so yu fckinn shut up yur the fckinn NOOB .
Happypanda234 (8:35:37 PM): Ok seriously please stop talking to me if your going to talk improper. Its annoying and your a whore. Its ok if your not now all you have to say is your not.
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:36:09 PM): 1st of all it was fckinn runescape i have a real boyfriend in real life .
Happypanda234 (8:36:20 PM): I know
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:36:38 PM): so fckinn yu asked forr it soyu fckinn gonna get it .
Happypanda234 (8:36:47 PM): I asked for what?
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:37:10 PM): so yu can go ahead and be a nerd and go ahead &* suck balls for all iccare .
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:37:17 PM): what fckinn grade are yu in ?
Happypanda234 (8:37:38 PM): Im a senior in High school. And why are you so upset? Geez
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:38:43 PM): wow yur a senior and yu play fckinn runescape and dunno how to tlk im ?
Happypanda234 (8:39:16 PM): OMG! Why would i wanna know how to talk im when i can use the English language. what grade are you in?
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:39:53 PM): 7th grade bitch and im fckinn dissing yo ass imagine what i would do if yu waz here .
Happypanda234 (8:40:16 PM): Your dissing me? how are you dissing me? What would you do if i was here gnaw at my ankles?
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:41:05 PM): yu would be fckinn nawing at chyo own ankes bitch .
Happypanda234 (8:41:21 PM): Well i am that flexible
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:42:28 PM): yur practically in college &* look at yur fckinn aim name &* yu dont noe how to speak im &* yu play runescape &* GO GET A FCKINN LIFE !!!
Happypanda234 (8:42:40 PM): Umm
Happypanda234 (8:42:52 PM): Let me tell you a little about myself before you go and say things you dont knwo about
Happypanda234 (8:42:54 PM): 1
Happypanda234 (8:43:03 PM): I just restarted to play because i am bored
Happypanda234 (8:43:05 PM): 2
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:43:18 PM): yu got nuthing bettah to do ?
Happypanda234 (8:43:28 PM): Talking im speak is no accomplishment because it just shows you know how to butcher the English language
Happypanda234 (8:43:30 PM): 3
Happypanda234 (8:43:42 PM): I have more of a life than you could ever possible imagine having
Happypanda234 (8:43:50 PM): and i don't have anything else to do
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:43:53 PM): yu have a fckinn fake ass life .
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:44:16 PM): why cuhz yur fckinn mom doesnt let yu go out .
Happypanda234 (8:44:43 PM): No because i have to watch my brother and sister and all my friends are getting ready for bed
Happypanda234 (8:44:58 PM): My mom is out at work
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:45:11 PM): pff theyre going to bedd ?!! thats fckinn low az hell .
Happypanda234 (8:45:35 PM): how is that low?
Happypanda234 (8:45:39 PM): that*
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:45:55 PM): theyre fckinn going to bed rite noww ??
Happypanda234 (8:46:28 PM): A lot of people yeah
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:47:03 PM): yu mean gay people like yu , so fckin get a REAL life .
Happypanda234 (8:50:32 PM): A real life? wow your one to talk. i spend countless moments caring for my family doing all the chores around the house. I have to run my own educational plans and cook and clean and provide for myself i try to manage a relationship and get through college and you spend your time bickering with me, your a joke at lease i get money in life and am happy with it too
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:53:22 PM): i have the money my familyy is fckin rich .
Happypanda234 (8:53:44 PM): Which just goes to prove my point farther
Happypanda234 (8:53:46 PM): you have no life
Happypanda234 (8:53:54 PM): because you just go to your parent for anything you want
Happypanda234 (8:53:56 PM): And get it
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:53:58 PM): yes i fckinn do .
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:54:01 PM): yur the one whos fake .
Happypanda234 (8:54:06 PM): how am i fake?
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:54:14 PM): yu have a fake ass life .
Happypanda234 (8:54:17 PM): how?
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:54:32 PM): yes i do go to my parents &* lyke get whatever i want so yu have to work for it .
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:54:49 PM): yu noe what ill deal with yu l8ter vuhh fer rite now i mgoing out .
Happypanda234 (8:54:54 PM): no
Happypanda234 (8:54:55 PM): wait
Happypanda234 (8:54:56 PM): Wait
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:54:57 PM): with my boyfriend .
Happypanda234 (8:54:59 PM): I just relized
Happypanda234 (8:55:05 PM): What kind of a person you are
MrSbReEzYBaBiE (8:55:11 PM): yes thnxx bye
Happypanda234 (8:55:13 PM): You have a twisted sense of reality and think that everything can be given to you.

Im going to try and be a better person. im tired of being so sad and depressed. I mean...No one really knows i am but a few. I only tell maybe 3 people when im sad. But no more. I wont be sad. I have a pretty good life. and while it isn't as best as i can make it. im going to try. Life is what you make it. Like i once said..
"Life is not about being rich, getting what you want, or living the life of someone famous. It is about doing what you were chosen to do; it is about making peace with the world, and yourself, and having the will and determination to do so. It is mostly about just living day by day doing what you were meant to do and living life by destiny. Destiny is what lays down the many paths for you to walk on and your goal in life is to choose the path you feel best with and keep on it. And this path you choose will determine the way you live, the way you act, and the way you feel about anything and everything. And although it may seem easy to stay in a straight line, many things in life will try there hardest, whether it is a person or a drug or maybe even just a tiny little thought, to divert you from that path and it may be the hardest thing you could do to stay on that path. If you don't have will and determination, that which drives you to do your best and makes you who you are, then there is no chance you will be able to overcome any obstacle, or even self doubt, in your way to stay on the path you have chosen."
-Alexander Andreas


P.S. SOMEONE SHUT THE DAMN SUN DOWN!! ITS RIGHT AT MY WINDOW EVERYTIME I GET ON MY COMPUTER!!! ITS ANNOYING!!!!!!!! AHHHHH!!!!!! ...>.>
Heh

Well.......I feel like shit....and i am surprised...but it seems something is going right.....I will do it. I refuse to lose her. i cant....No way will i ever want to nor will i let her get away. I love her. I did horrible things. Which i don't think are forgivable but she has forgiven me. And for that i am great full that she chose me over the many, better guys she could be with. so i will honor that and do my best to be all i can be for her.